The more information I receive, the more confused I get.
How? Why? So many questions.
Tuesday morning I get a phone call from an adoption agency that wants to come over and meet us. Children and Youth Services (CYS) referred them. They specifically named the baby in our home.
Tuesday evening I have a visit from a caseworker. She tells me that CYS wants the baby to stay with us, but aren't sure they have the legal grounds to even recommend it.
When the kids came, we were told 30 days to 3 months. The permanency plan I have in front of me says the expected stay is 6 months.
The fact of the matter is that no one knows. No one. It's hard to live each day not knowing what the next will bring, whether you will have children or not, and fear what they may go home to. I love my foster kids, every imperfect inch of them, even when they drive me nuts... but it's hard.
Lord, lead me.