It's not fair.

Life isn't fair. If it were, anyone who wanted to be a parent could simply find someone else who wanted to be a parent, have a "special hug," and 9 months later, ka'pow! a child is born.

Yeah, I know, it isn't always that easy, even for couples with no fertility issues; but from where I stand, it certainly looks that way. It seems like EVERYONE is either pregnant or had a child in the last year. Half of my newsfeed on facebook is about babies, babies, and more babies. As much as I want to be happy for my friends, I mostly just feel the pain of the emptiness of my own house. (I was going to write womb there, but I've never really wanted to be pregnant. It was a necessary evil in my mind.)

So here I am a few hours after my introduction meeting to Bethany Christian Services, the agency Chris and I will use to adopt, writing about how life isn't fair. This meeting, however, has given me hope. Hope that I REALLY WILL be a mother some day, almost certainly within 2 years, and of an infant! a healthy little boy or girl to love and raise and make mistakes with!

My life will probably never be described as "fair" or "normal," but it's my life and I'm going to make the most of it.